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.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. oh lord [07 Nov 2004|07:28pm] [ mood | blah ] alright this week was eh monday - nothing tuesday - nothing and cut my bangs wed - packed and nothing thursday - i left my house at like 11ish and we got there at like 12:30 because we had to stop .. we got there. saw everyone and ate some food. i went with aj to physical therapy then we got home and she went to work and amy picked me up. we went to a&p to cash some change in and ran into casey. we took casey from her mom and then amy locked the keys in the car. hahahah!!.. we sat outside in the rain for like an hour. finally amys dad dropped a key off and then we went to emilios to eat and wait for aj to get off of work. she went an changed and then we went to amys friends house and chilled there thendropped casey off and amy dropped me and aj off. friday - woke up at like 10:30 me and aj got ready called amy she picked us up we went to amys. i called paul and then amy dropped me off at pauls house. i chilled there till 4:15 and then they picked me up. we found out caseys mom hurt herself a little while later and we went to her house. aj decided to go with casey to the hospital so me and amy went down near atlantic city to "pick something up" and then on our way home casey and aj called and we picked them up and we "hung out" and then went to go see saw. it sucked. then we went to ihop sooooo goooooooooone! alright we slept at amys and we all passed out. i'm not speaking of anything about saturday cept me aj steph amy and casey went out to lunch at a china buffet. today i came home.. <3 Lex " A Broken Heart Is Just A Trend. " - Amy

.against the ceiling. somethings are good but others just fucking suck [31 Oct 2004|05:49pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] friday me and him sat together in class and listened to stories. then he walked me to my locker and class. and then went to felicias and hung out with her and jonathan. we just hung around the house and then later at night at like 9 we went to his house and me him jonathan and felicia hung out. we left at like 11 from his house and then went back and chilled in her room till like 1 then jonathan left. saturday - got dressed and anthony came down and we chilled jonathan came over and we went to pathmark and got cigarettes and then jonathan left and me felicia and anthony went to carteret for the parade then came back round here and i left home fell asleep because i felt like complete shit sunday - took jordan trick or treating with my moms then hung out with shannon then watched a movie then hung out with shannon again and now im here. theres nothing to do and i don't feel good.. i wanna do something but i don't wanna do something. its weird oh well shit happens mon- nothing tues and wed - watching jordan then nada thurs thru sun - hopefully aj's.. never know. <3 Lex "Watching romance from a far seat Bleeding from the glass on my feet Learning that I love the smell of flesh"

.against the ceiling. either you hate me or you love me [23 Oct 2004|07:31pm] [ mood | blank ] last night i went to the carteret football game. i met up with lina n fio then we walked round and i spotted kev n he waved hi to me and i waved back hah! then rami came us to up and i asked him who he was with n i was hesham and walked up to him said my hello then i say marissa n stana. i chilled with them for awhile. i got a kik in my butt and i turned arond and dennitza and sam were standing there and sam was like hi and i was like whats up she changed.. haha!!.. she looks better then she did thats a good thing. well i went back and talked to fio lina fio bro n alejandro [ i think thats how you spell it ] i then got up the courage to go sit by kev and me and him talked it was.. interesting.. hm well. i met back up w/ lina n fio and then went back to kev when he was alone.. and me and him.. talked.. and then he left and me lina fio her bro an alejandro went n met up with theirfriend evelyn and then i met backup with kev and me and him chilled for a bit then me lina fio her bro alejandro and evelyn went to mcdonalds.. and then from there to linas.. linas mom bugged out becuz it was like 12:30 n she had work in the mornin.. n i was still there.. today i did nothing laid around and just relaxed.. <3 i have to write my research paper.. <3 Lex

.2 blew their brains .. against the ceiling. fuck the world [16 Oct 2004|10:15am] alright im not suppose to be fucking happy. i'm not hanging out with him tonight. I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHY THOUGH!. HE JUST FUCKIN EMAILS ME AND IS LIKE I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE TONIGHT DON'T HATE ME. he knows how much i was looking forward to this shit. just fucking rip my heart out and fucking stomp on it in my face. fuck everything right now. the only thing i am looking forward too is seeing amy she'll make me happy. but my own fuckin cousin doesn't wanna come up and chill with me. this makes me real fucking angry. i have no shampoo or conditioner and i don't have something else WHICH I NEED BADLY. i'm still not over the fact that everytime im going to see his ass he backs out! i don't fuck believe anything anymore. fuck it </3 Lex

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. hes my king and i'm his queen [15 Oct 2004|08:15pm] [ mood | anxious ] the days go by and all i do is think of him. i never thought i could feel this strong about someone again. distance means nothing to me it only makes me wanna see him longer <3 when im crying so hard he makes me smile. when i want to crawl up in a little ball and disappear he makes me feel like i have a reason to stay. i feel though i have stronger feelings then he does. i'm going to see him tomorrow i cannot wait. <3 ksceomrabj

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. im really fucking pissed [10 Oct 2004|12:30pm] [ mood | pissed off ] im in a bad mood and theres nothing to do. last night erick came and picked me up with marissa rami and "nick" hah. we went to carteret and chilled.. we met up with khaled at burger express. then went n chilled at a park. we drove around and then we went to menlo mall because everyone wanted to find someone to fight. we left there and then came back round here and then to sewaren docks. then i came home and slept. lol tomorrow im chillin with felicia friday i might chill with miller. maybe. dont know. i want to realy bad tho<33 hm nothing to do today. <3 Lex

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. Nothing New yet Nothing Old [07 Oct 2004|07:35pm] [ mood | pleased ] eh nothing has been going on. no one in mah god damn life. i'm looking for a boyfriend. nothing has been working though. no one yet. ah! halloween is coming up. i'm going to take jordan out and go trick or treating. hopefully after that i'm going to my cousins i miss her and amy and everyone <333 meagan is coming over tomorrow and we are chillin haaaaaard hahah we are gunna have a BLAST!. oh man i can't wait. i'm angry i was suppose to go to felicias but my mom bugged out and was like no i'm not bringing you! so monday i'll chill w/ her. <3 Lex

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. [18 Sep 2004|06:36pm] lets see. im so single its not even funny. hah!. brock is hott and i love him and the feeling is mutual but me n him could never be together. went to carterets football game last night saw kevin [ hes hott ] i hate it. he hugged me. his cousin talked to me and i had no idea who he was until he informed me. thursday heather turned 14 hahahh sike she turned 17 .. i chilled with her megan brett matt yatta and shannon all day. wed. me heather n shan watched dirty dancing havannah nights and went crazy being spanish hah!. SPANISH PRIDE! wuppppaaaaa!!!!!!.. hah! today saturday.. laser tag - no .. so nothing else to do. brock didn't come see me. bastard heheh i still love him with my whole fuckin heart.. nothing else to say

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. cramps ahh .. tear [12 Sep 2004|01:06pm] ok isma has a really really hott cousin. and i kissed him. soo hottness! he asked me for my number too hehe. and he wants to see me today but i dont think thats going to happen because i got cramps and dont feel like going outside.maybe i will my cramps have gone down. shower time then im going to see isma's cousin <3 hottness FUCK TONY!

.6 blew their brains .. against the ceiling. You were the first good thing in a long time [28 Aug 2004|09:36pm] [ mood | refreshed ] i haven't had any feelings toward anyone in a long while now. today i chilled w/ kevin [ hes hott ] alright and you know i can control my feelings towards people now. i don't look for boyfriends i just look to see if i can have a pretty decent friendship maybe some benefits if wanted [ ya know ] well me and sable were sitting on the wall thing on main st. waiting for kevin and mike to show up because they took the bus. i saw him and i got a type of [ wanting ] feeling. maybe it was nothing. so we chilled and stuff then we kissed <3 okay no biggie i kiss a lot of guys [ not to sound slutty, its harmless ] we start chillin more and hes becoming closer and closer. i started feeling things i haven't felt in a looong time. i started looking at him to see if hes cut-out to fill the shoes [[ someone ]] took off and walked out sockless. to put it in simpler word. i'm starting to ..like.. him. scary. i'm so afraid to get hurt. wooo though he doesn't want a girlfriend at the time. he kisses awesomely <3333333333333 someshits just meant to stay one way.

.against the ceiling. backseat car rides [23 Aug 2004|10:42am] it felt so good to go out and just chill aaaalll niiiiight. well i met up w/ sable later at night and anthony came and picked us up at like 8ish maybe i didn't look at my watch. then we went and got dylan <3 oh man. hes so hott i just recently saw him after like 3 years. its been awhile. me and him were stuck in the backseat with each other. i thought it sucked for him but i found out differently later in the night. alright so after that we were trying to get something to smoke. we drove all the way to some place for us to pick some shit up and for the guys to get dunkin donuts. we chilled there and waited for the kid to come. finally the kid came and we left. we went to 711 got a dutch and cigarettes then up to washington park we went.! on the way up i jacked dyalns cigarettes from him and me and anthony went along with it for a good time. we rolled and shit. then went and smoked. hahah anthony asked dylan if he could have a cigarette and hes like nah man i left them in the car while they were reallyin my pocket so ant asks me and dylans like holy fucking shiiiiiiiit!! and i just held em all night for him. alright none of us could walk it was insane. we were trying to walk down these huge stairs.. nope not working. that shits got some pretty ass view. dylan and ant climbed the wall and i told em if they fall off i know first aid so its ok. we were all sitting there and ant pulls dylan aside and they went and had some manly walk lmao yea ok but sable pulls me over and shes like me and ant are trying to hook you and dylan up and i was like ehh very doubtful about this one but its whatever. sable knows how i felt about the whole situation. well lets just say after ants talk dylan became a lot closer i was just like OKAY! taking it in. well we went to 711 again and got slurpees and soda. then smoked again. this time me and dylan kept smoking the rest of the night. me and him got out the car and took a walk to the bench and chilled and smoked. ant and sable were in the car.. oh baby.. haha.. well the cops rolled by so me and dylan got up and went back to the car and left... the car ride home was fun. me and dylan kissed. ooh this shits funny. dylan me and sable were sitting down and ant was wondering. i was like oh man sable we got hash at home and dylan and ant were like what and surrounded us they were like how much and i was like a whole cans worth and dylans like whaaaaaaat holy shit where'd you get it from and im like one of those little corner store shits like amboy got hes like how much was it and im like 1.89 hes like hooooly shit ant is sittin there with his jaw to the floor and i was telling him how the shit just knocks you on your ass. they were dying and i was like yea with some salt and pepper and they didn't catch it.. finally i said something and they were like whaaaaaaaat i was like you know the food hash. and they were like oh no you didnt it was hilarious.. guess u had to be there. i found out dylan likes me <3 oh baby. we ight all chill tonight or tuesday. dylans goin surfing though. .. Lex

.against the ceiling. cucumbers and disgusting juice [21 Aug 2004|12:42am] [ mood | geeky ] beautiful baby blue!!! im eating a cucumber and drinking nasty rasberry peach juice shit i made. its gross. today i went to the mall with heather and i bought a pair of jeans. they're sexy i'm gunna model them for kevin <3 hah! yea and then.. we came back walked to shoprite with her sister selena and then her mom picked us up and we went to quick chek and got snacks!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaah!!!!!! then went met up with ashley rich and rob and went to riches and everyone but me and ash went in the pool we wanted to stay dry lol. i got the hiccups ahhh would you look at that. insanity!!!

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. Long time [19 Aug 2004|06:10pm] [ mood | groggy ] i haven't updated in a looong time. wow. lets see i got home from florida wed. and then amy and my cousin came and picked me up we went to atlantic city and got fuck up beyond belief both nights. ate a lot of mcdonalds. we went pool hopping too. wow the taj mahal pool is shit. i think ours was better but the only plus for theres was that it was heated. that was awesome. but the black people hair floating around in it. no. sorry. i came home friday night amy drove me and aj back because we "missed our train" hah. okay. aj stayed here. friday night me her amy and my bro went to shoprite and droppd off my pix. saturday moring we got a phone call from my mommy and she had her baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then we went to shoprite picked em up and saw ralph<3 hes hott but old. then me aj and sable went to menlo for old times sake lol. it was interesting. dropped sable off then got checkers. awesomeness me and aj were both craving shakes. she got chocolate and i got banana yummzzz <33 thats the way you win my heart over lol sunday- hung out around the house went to the mall. pete picked us up later that and we went and got ice cream at dq then we went and enjoyed the rest of our night. lol!!! monday- my baby came home <3 i love my little sister heheh. james picked us up and we drove around. went to traget and i saw joel and my cousin shopped. hung at james house then went home. tuesday- me and aj hung out around the house there was nothing to do. then i went down to heathers house after everyone left. then ash and rich came and we smoked a cigarette wed.- we were all suppose to hang out me ash and rich but i ended up only hanging out with ashley and me her and her friend sara went to the mall. sara's a cool chick. then we went home and i slept over ashleys. today- woke up at 1:45 at ashleys then ate some breakfast came home and showered james picked me up and hung out at his house and now im here. all done!! tomorrow im either going to the matches show or going to hang out with fiorella. i miss her <333333 <3 Lex

.1 blew their brain .. against the ceiling. heartache to heartache [08 Aug 2004|11:14pm] [ mood | hot ] friday- went to my aunts house for a party .. fuunn i swam A LOT hah! saturday- laid around the house and it thundered a whole lot. it was scary hah .. today- laid around and then went and saw 13 going on 30 with my gram and went out to dinner afterwards.. tomorrow is my last day. hopefully everyones getting together to go out and do something my last day. i might do something im not going to say what in case it doesn't happen. then tuesday danny is driving me to the airport. my grandma is so ANNOYING i know thats horrible to say but she has A.D.D. HARDCORE! ac broke here .. so im gunna be happy to go back to jersey where i here its been cold <333 i miss everyone

.against the ceiling. don't blink you might miss [05 Aug 2004|10:17pm] [ mood | sick ] alright well.. tuesday- me and my grandma went shopping. i got another pair of cons $17 it was a steal indeed heh i got this awesome shirt too.. and some other stuff. then we came home hung out and me and gram were going out to dinner and i tried to get my uncle to go with us but he wouldn't so me grams and nancy went on a girls night out. we went to this awesome italian resturant and there was a hott waitor<333 then as we are walking out this guy goes to nancy " im 21 and i like ur hoodie wanna trade?" and he was talking about my element hoodie and nancy was like i don't know what im wearing!!. haha then we went and got ice cream wednesday- went to universal with my grams uncle and danny. i had fun but got really ott and sick to my stomach :/ came home at like 9ish because me and my uncle went and dropped danny off to get his car. i woke up at like 2:30 and felt like i was going to die. it sucked!! today- i woke up at 1:45 and my uncle was like u wanna go swimming with leanna and i was like ok sure so my great uncle came and picked us up and they went off and golfed and i stayed with leanna and swam then danny came home and hung out with them. me and danny went and got ice cream. i finally got a cigarette!! omg i was so relived. we came back to the house then went back out and got checkers. we hung out around the house and then danny dropped me and my uncle back off at the house. i found out a lot about my cousin i didn't know .. we bonded <3333 hehehe tomorrow im going to my aunts house for a party wish danny was coming </3 heh.. me and his dad.. my great uncle tried to make him go to jersey. not happenig.. rest of the days are spontaneous.

.3 blew their brains .. against the ceiling. florida guys are hott [02 Aug 2004|10:15pm] im in florida right now. thursday- sat in airport 5 hours missed first plane..got on the second one at 5ish. we got to tampa and circled in the air for like 20 mins. scary!! my grandma dad and dads girlfriend picked me up and came here n slept. friday- went to the flea market me and grams got my sister some bath toys and me some nice sharpies then to wendys. my uncle and aunt and her boyfriend came over when we got home hung out with them. at like 7 my dad came and got me and my grams and went fishing till 2:30 in the morning. came back here then i went n slept at his house. saturday- i met ceria nacny's daughter and we got showered and stuff and met my grams and uncle at 711 then went to the springs. we rented a row boat and rowed up the river to the swimming area. it sounds corny butit was awesome we were all laughing and having a good time. we got back went to the golden corral and ate then to toys'r'us and bought a game came here and played it my dad n nancy n ceria left at 12. sunday- went to church went food shopping then to keiths and chrissy w/ cheese cake and pizza yumzzz danny looked allgrown up and ALOT better then last time wen i saw him. he drove me back here got my bathing suit and me him leighanna and her friend went swimming. then back to te house and went home. i had a bonding moment with my cuz he was playing his bass and i was just messing around with his guitar. it was cool today- went to the movies w/ chrissy leighanna my dad and uncle. me chrissy and leighanna saw the village fucked up ending!! andmy dad and uncle saw spiderman2 ...came back here ate then me and my grams went to the mall and she got me low top cons <3 thanx! we're going to universal wed with danny should be fun!!! <3 Lex

.against the ceiling. the eagerness is killing me [27 Jul 2004|09:18pm] [ mood | thankful ] i leave in a day! i can't wait. tomorrow im not leaving my house im packing all day and getting all my shit together and cleaning my room up more. aj might come up when i get back yay <3 how much i can't stand her and hate her at times i always bounce back. its just the way we are towards each other. well i spent my days pretty good. yesterday i went to sables chilled with her slept over and then mommy picked me up and we went to shoprite. ralph <3 hes hott. gotta get my camera developed tomorrow. <3 Lex

.against the ceiling. pur [25 Jul 2004|11:18pm] saw catwoman with ash amber their cousin megan and diane. it was okay. my plane leaves thursday and i come back the 10th. yup. can't wait boredum <3 Lex

.against the ceiling. something [24 Jul 2004|05:05pm] im going over to sable's house today. maybe we'll do something exciting. ash is in Pa i think with rich. i wanna see sean <3 <3 Lex

.against the ceiling. a change of plans [23 Jul 2004|09:07pm] [ mood | can't wait! ] my plane leaves wed. and i return in 2 weeks. i can't wait. <333 i miss everyone down there im gunna just walk into my uncles house and see if anyone reconizes me hah it should be funny. yea well. i might update in fl i dont know. <3 Lex

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